Dave gave me a small (adorable!) Polaroid camera for Christmas. I wanted one because I wanted to start thinking about photography a little differently. I was getting really hung up on getting my images *perfect* and then doing a little too much negative self-talk when things weren’t like I wanted them. I was feeling heavy-hearted about photography. Which isn’t all bad, honestly. I mean, the heavy-heartedness comes from a place of wanting to really push myself and grow, grow, grow. It does NOT come from a place of complacency. :) But, it WAS getting me down.
I recently had a conversation with my photography teacher about some of her own work. She has a much different approach than I do and a lot of her work is abstract. She told me about a camera she built (!) and showed me some images she made with it. Hearing her talk about her own work was really eye-opening for me. It encouraged me to think that photography doesn’t have to have the guidelines that I thought it had to have. She reminded me that it is an open, creative process.
And so I asked for a polaroid. I wanted a toy. :) I wanted something silly. It’s image quality isn’t so great compared to my DSLR…I even have more control over my phone’s camera than I have over the polaroid camera. But, when I take photos with the polaroid I try to think “what is this image showing me?” “What IS here?” instead of “this isn’t working”. I’m trying to find places and situations where the polaroid camera is at it’s best. I’m trying to let go of ego and embrace experimentation and curiosity.
So, I’ve started a new journaling project. I’m taking daily shots with my polaroid. Since it’s digital, I get to chose what it prints…it doesn’t automatically print everything…and what it DOES print, comes out in a little 2×3 sticker…which I’ve been adding to my journal.
Here’s some examples of what I mean:
I am really enjoying this process and I LOVE how it’s opening up how I think about taking photos. And it’s SO good to get back to journaling.