new stage


Four weeks ago, the kids started school and I spent that first week VERY worried about what I was going to do with myself this year. I ended up doing little projects around the apartment that I’d been wanting to do since we moved in, but I hadn’t been able to get to…and instead of feeling good about getting those projects done, it worried me that I had all this time to do them. I wanted to be too busy to scrape the strange sticky substance off of the boys’ shower. I didn’t want to have time to dust the disgusting blinds. But there I was, scraping and dusting.

And now, here, four weeks later…things have changed.

I’ve been working on launching my photography business now since last May. And it’s been going really, really well. I’ve been learning a TON and I’ve gotten some great opportunities. I still feel a little overwhelmed with starting my own business and I still have a lot of questions, but I feel like it’s a really good path to take. It’s something I’m committed to and I’m steadily moving forward.

One of the things Dave and I realized, was that we needed a way to fund the start of my photography business. There were a lot of things that we could easily pay for at the beginning…like setting up a website, researching what company I will work with for photo sharing and prints, looking into legal contracts online and reading up on what I need to do to protect myself and protect my clients. Even the cost of my first class, we were able to fund ourselves. But we could see bigger purchases coming, equipment for one, and we needed to figure out a way to be able to wisely invest in this.

So, Dave put out a few bids for some projects that we could work on at home to build the capital we needed. And now we are working on a couple of archival projects at home. I am splitting my time between the archival projects and photography…and homemaking and mothering! And frankly, I am wiped out!

This week I:
– Met with a lawyer to establish a legal business relationship. Mostly he will help write contracts for our business to make sure everyone’s needs will be met.
– Bought a more professional grade everyday lens with the profits from our archival projects.
– Started my third photography class! This course is another nine week adventure. I LOVE these classes. The instructor is SO good and the structure of the class is really supportive.
– Learned how to convert umatic tapes (they look like jumbo VHS tapes) from the 1970’s into a digital file.
– Started organizing and scanning a photo collection that ranges from the late 1800’s to the 1950’s.
– Photographed 6 preschoolers with Down Syndrome for a poster project I am working on for Down Syndrome Awareness Month. This was the highlight of my week!! It was incredibly fun and so, so moving! I then created the posters with the photos I took, and sent them off to the printer.
– Communicated frequently with Isaac’s teacher and the program administrator about the behavioral reinforcement plan they have in place, and the ways they are adjusting it, to help Isaac be more successful with using the potty at school.
– Communicated with Andrew’s teacher about his recent grumpy mood when he “never gets his way!”. Talked to Andrew a lot about how NO ONE always gets their way and how he needs to keep in mind the WHOLE group he’s with, not just himself. Then, celebrated with his teacher when, part way through the week the grump receded and Andrew patiently sat with a peer to explain the rather complex math homework until the peer understood it. His teacher reported “it was amazing!” :)
– Ordered ballet leggings for Andrew! The pants last week were too baggy. He has to be able to see his legs in the mirrors to make sure he’s doing things right. He LOVES his ballet class!
– Did my regular mama work: packed lunches, helped with homework, cuddled and snuggled, read outloud, listened to stories, sat on the floor playing ‘gumballs in the cups’, gave baths and high fives and bonus wii minutes and gave myself two advil yesterday afternoon for the headache that took me over.

And the point of this is: YIKES. I am everywhere. I am doing. I am doing a lot and feeling like I am not doing enough. I am *hoping* that this is the transitional, settling in phase. That I find a rhythm. I need my rhythm. I mapped out a weekly schedule that will begin on Monday…and I’m hoping that helps. Because right now it just feels too chaotic…and I want to make sure I’m not just doing a lot…I want to make sure I am doing things well.

I’ve gone from bored to busy in four weeks. Now I need to work on dialing it back from busy to balanced. Wish me luck!


I also made a scrapbook page featuring some of the things we did last October to celebrate Halloween! Top priority for this October: be VERY spooky!! :) Here goes nothing!

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About robyn

I stopped teaching Kindergarten in 2005 to become the mom of two crazy boys here in Brooklyn. At first I thought being a stay at home mom meant that I needed to pour all my time and energy directly into my sons, but I realized somewhere along the way that being a rockstar mom meant not only taking good care of my boys, but also taking good care of myself. And taking good care of myself means pursuing something creative...just about everyday. I started Made In Brooklyn to motivate myself in my creative goals as well as share my work with others and perhaps inspire them in their own creative journeys.
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3 Responses to new stage

  1. Cathy says:

    Julia will be starting school next september leaving me home alone. I am starting to wonder what I will do with my time (like there is nothing to do in a house…) I would like to work from home so I can be there when they leave, when they get back and so they can come back home for lunch…. I’m sure I’ll find the first few days very weird. I hope I’ll find something that I’m passionnate about just like you!

  2. Vicki Dill says:

    Wow!! I had to lie down and put a cold rag on my head when I read this!! It seems you have plenty to do. It also sounds like you are “tasking” your brain in a lot of different directions, most of them creative. (You probably think creatively while you scrub that bathroom.) Soooo-you go girl. Oh, I loved the part about Andrew helping a classmate in math :)

  3. and it all sounds so fun and worthwhile!!

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