I’m trying to keep a diary now. This morning was day one. I bought a nice, soft, pink notebook with just-the-right-size lines and a ribbony bookmark, for this diary project.
I keep hearing about diaries. The idea of diaries seem to be in the air right now. I read other blog entries of diary-keepers talking about the benefits of committing to their diaries. I just listened to a Fresh Air interview with David Sedaris on his diary-keeping and he makes it sound like a really worthwhile practice. But I’m feeling skeptical.
I’m at a crossroads right now. A beginning-the-next-phase crossroads as I figure out the ‘work’ question. And my thoughts feel anxious and jumbled and confusing. I’m hoping a diary will help sort them all out. Give me time to just think and be. Think about what I want and where I want to go and be intentional about whatever next steps are ahead.
I’ve considered starting a diary for a few weeks, but I kept putting it off thinking that I have the time the kids are in school to think and be. But I never use that time for that. That time seems to be getting shorter and shorter as I tackle new projects and keep up things around my home the way I like to. For some reason I’ve marked school-time with certain things I *have* to do…and sitting around reflecting never made the cut. So this morning, I sat with my coffee in the dark before anyone else was up, and I began. I was hopeful that the diary would give me clarity, courage, help me sort out my thoughts, claim my path…but it seemed like my diary entry was just a rambling of neurotic worry. Sigh. So…is that helping? getting it out? giving air to worry? or is that just feeding my already active neurotic tendencies? I can’t really tell yet. But I’m curious if there is something to this.
Do you keep a diary?
My scrapbooking practices are changing too. This one I started, left to sit for a few days, and then finished up yesterday. I enjoyed approaching it in parts like that. A little here, a little there. It was a nice change. :)