This week, as people have wished me a Happy New Year, I first feel confused and then blank. Sometimes I remember to give a “Happy New Year!” back, but not always. This year it just feels like the strangest thing to say.
To be fair, I always think that New Year’s is a bit of a funny holiday…though when I think about it, I’m not sure why I think that. I always forget to wish people Happy New Year’s when the time comes….but this year? This year…I’m so tired. SOOOO tired. Christmas kicked my butt this year, and although I’m grateful for New Year’s in the sense that I get to settle back into regular life…I don’t have that energetic lift that I usually get when Christmas lifts.
I’ve made no resolutions, no goals, no promises to myself. With the possible exception that I’ve promised to be kind to myself until my energy returns and I can get around to more ambitious resolutions and…my favorite…until I can really start deep cleaning, the hallmark of January for me.
My list of what I want to do each day is long and I’ve been shocked at how little I’ve been able to cross off of it. I’ve been puttering around, doing a little this and that thinking “this is good enough for now”. “Good enough for now” would usually never pass muster with me. Right now…it’s just perfect. :)
One of the things I have been able to tackle is this Wild Rice Bread. Toasted for breakfasts or used for peanut butter sandwiches and arranged in small lunch boxes. I should probably post the recipe…but right now I am thinking that this post is good enough for now. ;)
Another thing I’ve been able to get to is to update the “Andrew” and “Isaac” tabs at the bar at the top of my blog. It was something I meant to do six months ago and yesterday I realized that it was as good a time as any. ;) Check them out if you want!
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Happy New Year! ;)
Happy New Year to you too!!!
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Loved to read Andrew’s and Isaac’s updates. They seem like great kids! Great to see all the progress they make. Keep up the good work!
I wonder if this feeling is ubiquitous? I feel “done”, used up, all my creative energy used up!! Even meal plannning is too much for me!! (I of course, still do it). It’s a brain thing-not physical. (I haven’t battled a cold/flu like you or had two boys home sick)
Going to work at CM is a relief–I know exactally what is expected of me–I do not “create” the job. For me there is healing in the putting away of decorations and reclaiming my home–no creativity there!! Healing in deep cleaning!! Thanks for the opportunity to vent. What is your going rate for mental health care?