Even though we’ve been settled into our current rhythm for about 8 months now, I keep realizing it over and over. A few weeks ago I was noticing that it was changing how much time I could spend on making stuff. Lately I’ve been noticing it was changing how much time I could spend home-making. And this week in particular two big events (well, big for me) have been driving home the point.
First, I hired a housecleaner. I just couldn’t keep up with cleaning the floors and dusting anymore. And it was really, really bothering me. So, I’ve hired someone to help me out. She comes on Saturdays while we are out frolicking and she feels like a cleaning angel that comes, takes care of things, and leaves me feeling more supported than I realized I needed. I love it. I love HER!
Then, my oven broke. Yesterday I found myself at a local bakery buying Irish Soda Bread and scones because how long can I be expected to go without things like that?!
Anyway, those two things, and my growing work load, have really been making me notice how much my life has shifted lately.
So, yesterday I took some time to put this together:
New Year’s Day 2012
Our family has changed so much this past year. Dave has a new job at CUNY starting up an archive. Andrew is settled into a good program at school and is making friends and learning so much. Isaac started school and is talking and engaging more than ever. My three boys are settled. They are all in great places and they are all thriving. And me. I’ve been working full time for the first time in six years. All the work has been from home, but the bulk of my time has shifted from mothering and homemaking to writing and editing. These feel like big, big changes to me. I miss the boys, especially Andrew with his long school days. I miss the care I used to be able to put into our home. But I love the quiet. I love my work. I love seeing the new sides of myself work brings out. Even though I saw all of these changes coming for months, I still feel surprised that they actually happened. That it’s all working out. That everything is absolutely a-okay. Just as it should be.