The other day I was on the phone with a friend, and right before I hung up on her (I’ve *just* about got this new phone figured out…hopefully there will be less of that) she asked me, in a commiserating tone, if I felt like I needed to be a superhuman. It sounded like she felt like that from time to time and before I could answer, my superhuman face clicked ‘end call’.

But of course this is something I can relate to. I want to be awesome. I want to be an all-the-time kind of awesome. I want to do everything right, from feeding my family, to writing for my job, to advocating for shorter bus rides for my kids. I tend to give myself little room for error, even when I’m doing something for the first time. And not only that, but I expect things from myself that aren’t always possible, not because I can’t do them, but because time is so limited. And I’ve known this for a long time…and yet letting go of this is hard stuff.

I have a feeling this will be a long battle for me.

I just wish I could free fall into grace. Realize that people will still like me if I heat up a frozen pizza for dinner, or mess up on the phone with the bus company or need some support from my proofreaders at work. In fact, they might like me more. :) Well, except for the people at the bus company. I want to accept that I’m okay, even when my mess shows.

umm….right? right?

Alright. I’m off to embrace some imperfection today. :)

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About robyn

I stopped teaching Kindergarten in 2005 to become the mom of two crazy boys here in Brooklyn. At first I thought being a stay at home mom meant that I needed to pour all my time and energy directly into my sons, but I realized somewhere along the way that being a rockstar mom meant not only taking good care of my boys, but also taking good care of myself. And taking good care of myself means pursuing something creative...just about everyday. I started Made In Brooklyn to motivate myself in my creative goals as well as share my work with others and perhaps inspire them in their own creative journeys.
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6 Responses to superhuman

  1. Ann Macey says:

    I am going to give my daughter the addy for your blog. She needs to hear someone say these things and to know she is not alone in striving to be perfect.

  2. Amy says:

    I worked on patience today. I heard, on a radio interview during the week, that when we are surrounded in a busy urban environment it can actually teach us excellent patience coping skills .. as in, we cannot change the traffic, so get over it and don’t get aggro (just as one example). My 30 minute drive took nearly an hour and a half … I had lots of practice and I looked on the drive with a completely different attitude – it helped, sort of!

    I was not on time, I was worried about the kids and I am not perfect. They were fine, and once I took deep breath, so was I!

  3. Robyn says:

    Thanks Amy. I’d never thought of that before, but I think the city has taught me certain kinds of patience. Traffic, lines in the grocery store, having to maneuver in crowds. I’d say I go through periods of being at peace with my imperfections, but right now I feel like I’m in a period where I’m trying to obliterate them. ug.

  4. MandiCrocker says:

    HA! How funny… I was just talking about you today with my friend Brandy whose in town for the weekend. We were talking about people whose creativity seems seemless & easy & natural and how much we have to work at it to be any good. I said, “My friend Robyn bakes bread, sews, scrapbooks– she creates something EVERY day and then still finds the energy to blog about it. It’s incredible.” I would like to say on behalf of your readers, we believe you ARE superhuman, lady!!!

  5. Melissa says:

    I hope you don’t take this the wrong way, but now that I know you better (i know it’s mostly online, but still…), I know that you are NOT superhuman, and I feel like I can be good friends with you as a result. THat’s probably my own insecurity. But I have a hard time being friends with perfect people. You are AMAZING, Robyn. And I say that will all sincerity. But you are so amazing because I know how human you are. And I think that’s awesome.

  6. Melissa says:

    But also, you do a LOT. And that’s pretty awesome. And what you do, you do amazingly well.

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