building steam

I notice that from time to time, in the various projects I work on, I run out of steam. I don’t want to work on something. I need a break. I escape and avoid. Then at other times, I can feel the steam building. Sometimes it starts in a negative way. I start to feel bad that I am not doing something a certain way. Something starts to niggle annoyingly at me. Instead of starting on a positive note and feeling motivated about making a change, I start by feeling bad that I haven’t made the change yet. Even if it’s a change I just thought of. Why is that?

Anyway, I’m trying to rephrase the whole thing. When I notice that negative feeling, I’ve been trying to immediately re-classify it from guilt to the early stages of change. I try to think of it as building steam in areas where I’ve run out.

Things I’m Building Steam About:

1. I want to work on communicating better with Isaac. Isaac’s language is very delayed. He has a decent vocabulary, but the majority of his language is used to label things. He’s not one for small talk. He’s not even one to tell me what he wants to eat…or even that he wants to eat. I know he wants to eat because he starts pushing me around the kitchen. When I went to his 3 year check up his pediatrician and I were trouble-shooting some ways to help him communicate and I was reminded about a picture-baced system that I’ve used in the past. It’s widely used with kids on the autistic spectrum and has had great results. I need to print some of those pictures and start crackin’ already!

2. I also want to work on potty-training Isaac. I gave it a whirl a few months ago and he clearly was not ready. I don’t think I will potty train him the same way I potty trained Andrew. I think it’s going to have to be a little different. In part because of Isaac’s language…but also because he can’t STAND to have his pants and diaper off. Andrew just went naked for a few weeks while we worked on it. I don’t think that can happen with Isaac. Which means, I need to tinker with other strategies. But…I am so done with diapers. Especially cloth diapers. I loved them for a long time…but enough is enough!

3. Craft projects! I feel the itch to make things. Complicated things. Things with lots of color and layers. Things with impressive wow-factors. Things with texture. Which means I need to get my sewing machine repaired! Build, steam, build! I am going to need a LOT of steam to motivate me to haul my sewing machine in for a repair! That stuff is always the hardest.

4. Phone calls. I still have a few more phone calls to get things squared away with Andrew’s school and therapies. And then…when those nagging calls are done…all calls are done! At least for now. Yippeee!!! Go, Robyn, GO! You’re almost there! I should make phone shaped cookies to celebrate.

And there you have it. 4 simple things.
And they just might happen! ;)

I took a recipe for Italian Bread and made a bunch of rolls. Everyone seems to prefer rolls over slices of bread right now. Even Isaac. I think he’s mistaking them for cookies. hmmm…maybe not communicating well has it’s perks… ;)

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About robyn

I stopped teaching Kindergarten in 2005 to become the mom of two crazy boys here in Brooklyn. At first I thought being a stay at home mom meant that I needed to pour all my time and energy directly into my sons, but I realized somewhere along the way that being a rockstar mom meant not only taking good care of my boys, but also taking good care of myself. And taking good care of myself means pursuing something creative...just about everyday. I started Made In Brooklyn to motivate myself in my creative goals as well as share my work with others and perhaps inspire them in their own creative journeys.
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7 Responses to building steam

  1. Susan says:

    Rolls are way better! More crust! This is a good post. I have the same problem where I let something sort of simmer on my back burner for awhile until I’m overwhelmed with guilt or whatever for not getting on it and then I go nuts. Usually in a negative way. I think I sometimes even find other (new) things to get all excited about to avoid the hard work of doing whatever I’ve been avoiding. Go, Robyn, go!

  2. Robyn says:

    Thanks Q!

  3. Miss Vicki says:

    You go girl!!!!

  4. Mama V says:

    Not sure about you, but so much about this is about timing for me. The nagging in my head often clashes with “the right time.” Maybe I’m just making excuses for my procrastination. But oftentimes, I hit a deadline or a critical “must do NOW” period, and then the work gets done, simply because it has to. And then I wonder why the heck I stressed out about it for so long!

    So for example, wait until HOT weather hits to potty train Isaac. By then, he might be beyond amenable to start stripping off not just his pants but all his clothes!

  5. Phone calls are the worst for me. Just working up the momentum to pick up the phone is such a challenge.

    Keeping pants on is the challenge in our house, especially in summer. Getting them to put clothes on period is challenge when the don’t have school. good luck with the potty training!

  6. Ruth says:

    Funny how we see ourselves, isn’t it? You always appear to be in full contol of everything around you and I am always envious!

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